Hey there sugar

Last Sunday I confessed to Mark my problem with sugar. I eat too much and get stomach aches and crash throughout the day. "I seriously need to stop". This was just after we had gobbled up half a pumpkin pie and some Halloween candy.

I told him I was going to cut sugar out for one week. Not the real fruit kind, but the yummy, delicious, chocolaty dessert kind.

He looked at me kind of funny as if thinking, 'Aren't you the girl who snacks on ice cream while cooking dinner?'

I looked at him as if thinking, 'Exactly! See there is a problem!'

He looked at me very seriously and nodded.

We were decided. I need support when trying to accomplish impossible things.

I walked to the cupboard and threw out the remainder of my precious candy corn. Honestly, it was difficult.

The week went relatively well. There were a few incidents...

• On Tuesday I discovered 5 escaped candy corn and ate them all.
• I ate half a nutrigrain bar on Wednesday.
• I also ate some chocolate chips and marshmallows Wednesday night at mutual. Hey, I didn't want to look like a dieter. Weak, I know.
• I ate a few bites of Russell's pb&js throughout the week.

On Saturday Mark and I got in a big fight about whether we should go to the bank before or after our hike.

We made up.

A few hours later Mark said, "Do you want to play a game tonight?"

I, in a shrill, mad voice retorted, "You never play any games with me. We have been through this one hundred times!"

Russ Russ said, "Mommy, chill out!" I guess we have told him to 'chill out' a time or two and he has now begun commanding us as well... which is fair.

I stormed into Target leaving Mark and boys in the car.

I came out, apologized.

On our way home Mark suggested we get smoothies. I thought about my sugar thing and said I probably shouldn't. He said it was ok, and I was convinced.

Ten minutes later, driving home, smoothie in hand, mouth and tummy I looked at Mark and gave him a sweet, sugary smoothie smile as the following thoughts flowed through my mind;

• Today has been the perfect day, one of the best I have had in a long time.
• Everything in my life is wonderful right now.
• I am so happy.

Mood altering, absolutely. And, I don't think I will go off sugar again for a while.